Being a Christian, my main and really my only true goal in life is to please my Creator. I love the Lord with all of my heart. And yet I let him down so often, in so many ways. I struggle with many things, anger, hatred, lying. But I think the one that really gets out of control in my life is lust. 

The Bible says Mat. 5: 27-29 "You have heard that the law of Moses says, `Do not commit adultery”, But I say, anyone who even looks at a woman with lust in his eye has already committed adultery with her in his heart. So if your eye, even if it is your good eye, causes you to lust, gouge it out and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to be thrown into hell.

This is part of what I don't understand. I am supposed to be attracted to the opposite sex, marry one and stay with them for the rest of your life. Then after the 'honeymoon' is over, the fall out begins. The youthful passion, the flirtations, the suggestive glances go away and all the busyness of life takes over and you just become two people living together. 

But that physical attraction to the opposite sex is still there and if your not 'getting any' the desires are even stronger. 

This is a vicious cycle. I love my wife so much and I don't blame her. I know I have gained a lot of weight, grown hair in places that aren't normal and complain about the aches and pains of this 'earth suit'. What she saw in me so many years ago has almost completely disappeared. And my romantic expressions have become questions like, "How 'bout tonight"? 

I know that I am a different person than I was then and she has changed too, but I still see her beauty and sensuality. She still turns me on and turns my head. I want it to be like when we were crazy kids, all over each other. I seemed to know what to do to effect her and interest her. Now I have no clue. I annoy her more than anything. 

I know this happens in many marriages,  and some people grow old like that. I saw my Grandparents like that until a new love grew in them. When my Grandma got Alzheimer’s disease, My Grandpa loved and cared for her in a new way and with a renewed spark. That's the way we should always love. Not worried about how messed up the other persons hair is or that their body has picked up a few extra pounds (in my case many). But the beauty of the other person inside and not just the outside.

Bringing me back to my main topic, Lust. The images on TV, magazines and advertisements are all perceived notions of that person. They look all glamorous and sexy, but we don't know anything about them. This is especially hard for us guys, we are so visual. But that is no excuse to sin!

Why doesn't God want us to lust. Because that thing turns our wants and desires away from Him, and His wants for us. We make that thing more important to us than him. 

The Bible says "He must increase, but I must decrease". This life is not about what I want. It is a test to see if we really love Him with everything. Not my will but yours Lord. Help me keep my eyes on you!

The more we give into our lusts, the more the Holy Spirit will lift away from us. He will not dwell in an unclean temple. But He does forgive. I just don't want to keep putting him back on the cross.  

Heb 6:4-6 For it is impossible for those who were once enlightened, and have tasted the heavenly gift, and have become partakers of the Holy Spirit, and have tasted the good word of God and the powers of the age to come, if they fall away, to renew them again to repentance, since they crucify again for themselves the Son of God, and put Him to an open shame.

And 

Romans 6:4-12 Therefore we were buried with Him through baptism into death, that just as Christ was raised from the dead by the glory of the Father, even so we also should walk in newness of life. For if we have been united together in the likeness of His (Jesus’) death, certainly we also shall be [in the likeness] of [His] resurrection, knowing this, that our old man was crucified with [Him], that the body of sin might be done away with, that we should no longer be slaves of sin. For he who has died has been freed from sin. Now if we died with Christ, we believe that we shall also live with Him, knowing that Christ, having been raised from the dead, dies no more. Death no longer has dominion over Him. For [the death] that He died, He died to sin once for all; but [the life] that He lives, He lives to God. Likewise you also, reckon yourselves to be dead indeed to sin, but alive to God in Christ Jesus our Lord. Therefore do not let sin reign in your mortal body, that you should obey it in its lusts.

We must shift our focus from our selfish desire to Christ. This is so hard with all the distractions but Phillipians 4: 8 says: Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things [are] noble, whatever things [are] just, whatever things [are] pure, whatever things [are] lovely, whatever things [are] of good report, if [there is] any virtue and if [there is] anything praiseworthy--meditate on these things.